Not Who I Appear To Be..

How well do you know yourself? How much time do you spend looking at yourself in the mirror?  Do you look the way you think? 

Have you ever looked at yourself in a photograph, and thought,"That's not the way I look.!" or "I don't take good photos."

Except...That is the way you look. 

It's not the photo, it's you.

I was looking at myself in the mirror the other day and thought, I look pretty good. Later that day I saw a photo of myself taken that same day. My first thought was, "WOW, what a horrid photo. How did they catch me in such bad light?

Later that day I glanced at myself in the mirror again. That's when it hit me. The person looking back at me isn't me.

Ok, it is me. But I'm the only living human being that sees 'mirror me'. The rest of the world, sees 'photo me'. 

In the mirror, everything about me, in reality, is backward. I see my hair parted on the left, but it's really parted on the right. I see my rings and ear rings on my right hand and right ear. But they're really on the left. The scar I see on my left cheek is really on my right. When I smile, I see the right side of my face go a little higher than the left, except it's the left side that goes higher.

I only see mirror me. Everyone else, sees photo me.

Everything I thought I knew about myself and the way look is backwards. 

What if other things I thought about myself are backwards too?

I think I'm a good person. A some what talented artist, writer, cook, family man, athlete, intelligent, witty, attractive... a bit of a renaissance man.  

What if I have it backwards. Maybe it's just mirror me that's this guy, and photo me is merely delusional.

I can't see photo me. What else have I been looking at backwards? What else about have I been wrong about.

I see myself one way. The world sees the reverse of that. Does that apply to my actions and thoughts too? When I do things I think are cute or funny, is the world seeing it that way too?

I had never really given any prolonged thought to things that have been said to me or the way the world have reacted to me at times. 

Maybe they were seeing photo me when I was being mirror me. They would have seen the reverse of what I thought I was doing or saying.

Now I am completely confused as to which person I am. For much of or all of my life I have been thinking I was mirror me. In reality I was always photo me. The problem now is that I don't know who photo me is. He's a stranger to me. And photo me has me questioning how well I know mirror me. Maybe I don't know either me at all and I have no idea who I really am.

I used to look in the mirror and see Mr. Incredible. Now when I look, I see Bob.


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