It's not that I don't really know. I think I do. I just can't admit it to myself yet. The motivation is there. I have the why. Meaning, I have something that I need to change for. Maybe I'm just lazy.
What I realize now, that I had not before, is that I can't make a problem change, by doing and acting the same way that caused the problem.
Insanity, is doing the same things over and over while expecting a different result. Clearly I'm insane. I keep doing the same things over and over and expecting things to turn out differently.
Well, now I'm on the path to actually change things. I'm doing something differently. I have a mentor that I believe in. And he in me. Which is already a big difference.
It could be that I'm selfish and ungrateful, but I have never really felt like I've had the best support. From anyone really. But this is no pity party.
Change the way you do things, and things will change. At least the outcome will be different than it has been. Let's hope anyway.
Maybe I should work on my attitude first?